♥Saturday, September 25, 2010♥
Was kinda sad & depressed. Trying to slp but just cant get to slp. Came home from wrk,Marcus went to fetch mii today. Then went back home to get all the bills bills bills to AXS to pay. I'm so tired of all the bills tat mummy had just throw over to mii.. Almost all of my pay are to due with bills & cant even get out of it.
Sometimes really makes mii feel like giving up. Have to smile every moment while wrking,even when i'm unhappy. Gotta tell myself to endure,even when i am tired to extreme.. Telling myself actually i'm lucky enough as there maybe much more unhappy ppl out dere.. but..,who really knows tat i need someone to relay on? I also need a break,a rest.. I also need a listener,a person to concern.. Yesterday i change my relationship states in my FB,haha guess wat? I received so much comment but nobody knows actually both account belongs to mii? Lolx.. so everybody tinks tat i'm attached & well loved taken care of..
Really feel like giving up alrdy,knw wat? The indian customers @ 409 had been having itching hands touching here & dere.. I dislike the behavour! I'm so unhappy! I avoid the tables last nite,but tink back.. how to rch my targets if i do tat? If i cant rch,i cant stays there.. if cant stay there means re-locate my station but i need to spend on transport leh.. I need to save up for all the bills bills bills.. cant even pamper myself! Even my cosmetic had finish now i also cant buy anymore for tis month.. i'm over burget alrdy..
Wat shld i do? One side is family & the other side is to be selfish just dun bother abt them.. I miss u alot 三哥..how can u leave just like tat..,so suddenly tat i have to force myself to be strong.. force myself to goes on.. can u come back? Are u around mii? Just now when i was inside the lorry,it reminds mii of u.. do u remember when i was seating at 534 u walk out of the lorry late at nite just finishing wrk? At the point of time u look so tired.. Do u remember on my 23rd birthday tis year u drove mii to Sing Song after wrk,just rushing there to buy foods for my birthday celebration? Do u knw tat i've all along keep every single things tat u've done for mii deep in my heart without saying? I tot u knw.. i hope u knw.. but yet,i was wrong for not saying it out.. the moment tat i knee down with tears dripping none stop,i knw tat it was too late for mii to say everything to u.. but,i really dun wan u to leave.. u're always in my heart,i'm always proud of u as my brother.. do u ever knw? While wrking,i saw ur frd Abert they all.. he mention to his frd abt u.. and his frd suddenly mention & asked mii.. He told them not to say anymore while i can just knock my head. Tears feel like dropping but i can only act as if i am fine.. I miss u alot.. please dun forget mii..
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