♥Friday, July 9, 2010♥
Time flyx ya! 三哥 de 100 days coming soon alrdy.. miss him badly,feel like crying,but cant cry.
I know tat compare to Mummy & Daddy my misses are just so much litter only..
I know tat 大哥，四哥 & 大姐 misses him much much more compared to mii.. images keep rounding in my memory. The nite tat we rushed down to TTSH.. the morning tat i signed his body out.. the last chances tat i can buy & serve him food..the very very last time where i scold him deep from my heart.. scolding him everyday for him leaving without a word. Scolding him to let mii be the one to sign his body out.. Telling him everyday how much I HATE HIM.. I hate him for making mii cry,I hate him for no longer can drive mii like tis yr 25 March 2010 where he drove mii to Sing Song to buy my b'day celebration foods. I hate him for not making nosies at nite to disturb my slp.. I hate him,I hate him... I hate him for not giving mii a chance to grant my wish of having a family photo! I hate him for no longer the one to accompany mii over to Ubin.. I miss u.. Do u know tat I miss u badly.. I love u deeply tat i'd never choose to say.. I tot u will know.. & I want u to be back! Do u knw tat it hurts.. It hurts mii everyday,every moment every time when i see others being pampered by their silbings. But i can only hide it inside..When would u knw tat tears is dropping? Always dropping inside my heart.. U knw them hw much i matters to u.. but i only get to knw when i would never be able to see u again.. Y? Y let mii be the last to knw! Y makes mii hate myself.. why let mii be the last to knw..y makes mii type all tis with tears.. y do u leave mii alone..i have thousand & millions of hates & why.. but cant compare to just one I miss u & I lovex u where i'd never ever said..
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